For behold, you look for truth deep within me,
and will make me understand wisdom secretly.
Psalm 51:7

“I’ll be honest shortly,” I text my spouse. To which he replies that this is a very funny autocorrect. What I meant to say was that I would be home soon.

Much of my day has been fast-paced and task-oriented. So many details to manage, the number of different bulletins that need to be produced colliding with end-of-the-year finances.

Where is the gracious space for me to be honest? About my feelings of inadequacy that stress brings to the surface. About how the satisfaction of completing tasks can cause me to lose focus on the relational. About how the trappings and rituals of the season are empty if they don’t propel me into the full mystery of the incarnation.

If I am honest, I know that the deep mystery of Christ, God enfleshed, eludes anything more than my momentary grasp and yet my complete surrender to it is absolutely necessary for my redemption. Only the Holy One can usher me in.